i hate how that i know some things wrong or that she likes him or thinks he is cool and iknow thart i cant compete cuz of my low self esteem. i makes me angry, i go home every night and yell and want to cry, but i cant all that comes from my eyes is daggers as i stare into pictures of my "friend" and some one i love. i also hate the fact that it seems like she knows that i know what she's thinking.

Wow, today...well technically yesterday, was a wierd day...i have a lot of shit to deal with. its wierd oh in one day some one can turn on a firend while not understanding, or knowing the whole story. all i did today was made a psycho woman happy while thinking of how im ditching my brother and he feels it too, i feel bad cuz its like he's an old out dated toy and no one wants to play with him but he still acts like he's the new cool toy but knows he's old and out dated and tries fit in but cant. it hurts me. every day i feel more and more distant from the people i care about and love. I had to help chear up my girl friends mom cause she lost her job and she's having trouble with her boy friend. while all this is happening im trying to figuer out how to manage an equal amount of time with my girl friend and my friends and how two of them got kicked out of the only place they had and now i feel like i need to choose a side the "kicker outer" or the kicked out...it wasnt even the kicker outer's fault and decision, but is now hate because he just so happened to be the bearer of bad news. i let things slide to much too. i dont know. i just dont know any more. maybe i need sleep..but thats over rated............

location: home mood: blah music: anybody else but you; the moldy peaches

IM 2 DAYS LATE BUT ANY WHO happy hitler fest ever one......

location: home music: mum

yo shit its been long time........
umm theres much to talk about but im to lazy to type.

location: house mood: but kick'n music: radiation 4

its been a while.....i havent up dated this in like Ages...i feel older and more mature from the last time i up dated.

mood: I PISSED music: some band

holy shit i havent up dated on lj in like....a long time. so yeah......SOME KID JUST CAME TO MY FRONT DOOR AND ASKED IF I WANTED TO BUY CANDY FOR A DOLLAR AND I SAID "no! but ill buy your soul" AND HE RAN AWAY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA wow what a perfect timeing he heeeheh ok im dont bye evey one

let me start this entry by saying that dunkin donuts fucken sucks ass. next week i get 19 hours....and i served 9 of those today
mother fucker. But things are good last week i got 210 bucks. I also got some new albums.
Deftones latest
team sleep
and
all shall perish
the new deftones album and the team sleep album both have Chino Moreno (from the deftones)
yup thats about it

GOOBLE GOBBLE! GOOBLE GOBBLE! ONE OF US, HEHEHE!
STARTING THE 18TH
bart and nancy are going to be in
FUCKING IRLAND!!!!!!!
FOR ONE FUCKING WEEK!
LEAVING ME HERE!
FUCK YEAH!

music: CENTERSTREET BEAT FACTORY-MURPHY'S LAW

HA hahah ha
stupid fucks. OK ludlow school systems are seriously retarded. The letter that i got yesterday stating that i have to go to summer school, which is a bummer fool, was for a class i took back in my freshmen years...year.....Their fucking three years off.

Son of a bitch! i have to go to summer school for fucken history. I PISSED....yes it is supposed to be pissed. I went to my history teach (mrs. Phelon) at the end of the year and was like "¿DID I PASS, DID I PASS?" and she was like "yup!"....And today i got a letter in the mail stating......I DIDNT FUCKING PASS? Oh fucking blue fish. so just a second ago nancy (aka mum) was like asking me a bunch a stupid question like. "why didnt you pass?" WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I DIDNT PASS....I DIDNT MAKE THA MUTHA FUCKING GRADE, SHIT HEAD...with a question like that i surprised that you passed your highs school year and also considering you and Yukon Jack held hands tightly together for most of your life until you popped out chris (aka my brother) and i. AN other stupid question was "why didn't you hand in a report?" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.....well little did i know she was looking at an old, out dated report card from the second term.....way to fucking go nancy. shes so fucking dumb. not some times. All the time. and also she acts like i want to remember what i did last school year and as if i give a shit. Well enough about that. I work from 2pm-6pm monday tuesday i had off, got extra hours today 3pm-10pm, i work tomorrow from 12pm-6pm and same hours again on friday, and on saturday i work 10am-6pm. lets see 4 hours monday, 7 hours wednesday, 6 hours tomorrow, 6 hours friday, and 8 hours on saturday thats 31 hours this week thats some were around 200 smackers. WOOT thats aboot one month of car insurance. I have a better plan over the summer of next year... As much as i hate nantucket i going to move down there for the summer get a job at the local Stop & Shop and um i dunno. IT FUCKING PAYS 10 DOLLARS AN HOUR THOUGH! thats fucken great! OH YEAH AND NO SLEEP THANKS TO MY VERY CLOSE FRIEND....The Espresso Bean hahaha

music: he is legend

Son of a bitch! i have to go to summer school for fucken history. I PISSED....yes it is supposed to be pissed. I went to my history teach (mrs. Phelon) at the end of the year and was like "¿DID I PASS, DID I PASS?" and she was like "yup!"....And today i got a letter in the mail stating......I DIDNT FUCKING PASS? Oh fucking blue fish. so just a second ago nancy (aka mum) was like asking me a bunch a stupid question like. "why didnt you pass?" WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I DIDNT PASS....I DIDNT MAKE THA MUTHA FUCKING GRADE, SHIT HEAD...with a question like that i surprised that you passed your highs school year and also considering you and Yukon Jack held hands tightly together for most of your life until you popped out chris (aka my brother) and i. AN other stupid question was "why didn't you hand in a report?" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.....well little did i know she was looking at an old, out dated report card from the second term.....way to fucking go nancy. shes so fucking dumb. not some times. All the time. and also she acts like i want to remember what i did last school year and as if i give a shit. Well enough about that.
I work from 2pm-6pm monday tuesday i had off, got extra hours today 3pm-10pm, i work tomorrow from 12pm-6pm and same hours again on friday, and on saturday i work 10am-6pm. lets see 4 hours monday, 7 hours wednesday, 6 hours tomorrow, 6 hours friday, and 8 hours on saturday thats 31 hours this week thats some were around 200 smackers. WOOT thats aboot one month of car insurance. I have a better plan over the summer of next year... As much as i hate nantucket i going to move down there for the summer get a job at the local Stop & Shop and um i dunno. IT FUCKING PAYS 10 DOLLARS AN HOUR THOUGH! thats fucken great!

music: he is legend

NANTUCKET FUCKING SUCKED BALLS
on the last night there some kids was umm, i guess you could say trying to pick on me because on my pants and shit so i threatened to jig him with a bottle and that was that he just like walked away.  I was pissed.  Nantucket kids are pussies.....LETS ALL GO TO THE JUICE BAR....ITS THE COOL PLACE TO BE!  SHIT 10:30.....ITS TIME TO GO HOME.  theres a bunch of shit gangstas too.....i need to go down there with some firends and fuck shit up.  there is no crime down there, just a bunch of pussies and cocky shit heads I FUCKING HATE IT.  Also next time i go down there ill make sure i get into a fight and wount stop beating the living shit out of them...NANTUCKET MUST BURN..oh yeah and my mum found a pair a pants there FUCKING 400 SMACKERS!
they must die

music: pig destroyer

Yup thats right, im going back to nantucket....the island of the rich cocky shit sticks with fucken gorgeous chicks. i think thats the only plus side to it. I went to north hampton yesterday with Tom, alex and...alex...yeah any who i gots me two new cds...Killradio, which i saw them at pearl street, and also which is a really good band and an AphexTwin album which come with two cds. The AphexTwin album is pretty good, not like his later stuff, all it really is is him on a key board and he doesn't use his crazy drum machine. It make me want to fall a sleep, good stuff, good stuff
ill be back from nantucket monday.
peace niggas

music: aphex twin

MUTHER FUCKING ASS HATS
i think i need to take chemistry in summer school. To me, it actually doesn't matter if the teachers an ass, well than that sucks for me...... but ill still have free time on my hands.... Hopefully ill be able to go and visit my brother down in florida and a good ole friend by the name a justin who lives in arizona but was once my next door neighbor will come and visit. if any one wants to hang out..my cellular telephone number is 478-5628 and house is 589-9597.

music: gorillaz

FUCKEN SCHOOLS OUT FO SUMMER BITCH!

I got a fucking hair cut
it doesnt look bad but its short, like not past my eyes any more
but its good cause it twas annoying when i kept having to push it out of my eyes
yup thats aboot it.
oh yeah i am at kyles house and im lighting a fire in his back with grill fluid and and his neighbor comes out and starts bitching. AWR PUT IT OUT I HAVE A STICK IN MY ASS! BLA BLA BLA! and that about it.

music: big dumb face

well the seniourssssers are finaly gone....yup ....every one was like HEY I WAS ONCE A JUNIOR AND AM NOW A SENIOR! WAAAAHHAHAHAHAHAH... which was quite rediculous, as if they leveled up in a video game I WAS ONCE A LEVEL 12 APRENTICE AND HAVE NOW LEVELED UP .....TO A PILE OF SHIT! hahaha ok peace

music: BIG DUMB FACE

work the next three days her stuff i dont want to hear and like alway put up with it and never stand up for my self back
ahh another bright and shining future

music: the red chord

YES! MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND OFF!

music: CRISIS